Health Conscious Peeps

Friday, March 16, 2012

Elliptical Illusion

Discussion with the elliptical:

Hi elliptical, it's me. I know you feel neglected, and abandoned. I'm sorry for that. I truly am. I've noticed you daily, but I've ignored you. When I'm downstairs, I feel your presence. It's almost as if you're calling my name... "Come use me, please!" Most people wouldn't ignore a call such as that, but I've drown out your pleas with goldfish crackers, and cupcakes. Or I've buried myself in the confines of my bedroom, with my computer, and television, trying to drown out your incessant cries.

You see, here's the deal. I've not been handling myself well, and you are, unfortunately, feeling the neglect of my demise. Please know it isn't your fault at all. I take full responsibility for the position I've put myself in, both physically, but most important, emotionally. You see, I'm the kind of person who doesn't really discuss her frustrations, because I don't like to upset people. So they build within me, and I struggle. This is where you came in. You were wonderful for working out frustrations... for a little while, but I'm sorry, I needed more. I needed human contact. For the most part, I've had plenty of it lately, but it's not exactly in the healthiest of ways. We meet, eat, and drink. As you can see, this isn't something I could drag you into. As the weeks have passed, so has my motivation to do anything good, and healthy.

The good news is, I've been working on that. I know you don't want to hear this, but I've hit the streets. This has been good for me, because I'm getting out of the house. I love moving... and getting somewhere. I need this. I need to move, with a goal, a purpose. I haven't had that, and you've been an enabler of sorts. Keeping me home, because I don't really need to go anywhere when I have everything I need here, but... I don't. I don't have everything I need, because I'm not going anywhere. These days have quickly passed, have quickly wasted into nothingness. This is something I can no longer accept.

My promise to you my wonderful, loyal, elliptical, is that I will jump back on. Right now, I'm going to bask in the sunlight, as I work my way back to good emotional health, but on the rainy days, you and I will meet up, and I'll keep you up to date and connected with the world outside...

***I'm changing the name of this blog... not sure what I'll call it just yet, but it's still going to be based on achieving good health. I'm taking suggestions!

I hope everyone has a safe weekend!!!

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